hello you! :DDDDDD

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

hey.. trouble at skul.

yeah. call me backstabber. call me kurang aja. call me kwn yg tk gune.

if tt suits u, den i dont care. call me watever uu want.

u hav ur own reasons, i have mine too.

look, i was just trying to help uu guys. i cant side olny one of u. i had tu side both of u.

of corse i dont tell tt iym siding both coz i kenw u woudnt undersatnd.

iym scared DIS will happen.

try to hepl u guys not to fight wif each other.

i noe how tt feels an it really feels horrible okie?

u might be thinking now 'tau pon'. yeah tt's rite.

tt y i dont want dis to happen to our frenship.

all of uu guys ar my darlinks.

of corse now in ur mind u would be going 'bluek! but its true.

all i was jus doing is to resolve dis probs within me ann each sides.

i trusted her. thouhgt tt u could b trusted knowing tt u are my bestest besty.

all i said was just a sectence. ann it all went wrong.

i really trusted her. den what happen?

told de rest of corse! i was acting as i wanted Nabila to feel better.

wat am i suppose to do? she trusted me.

i promised all my besties tt i will b dare for dem ryte?

thinking back.

have u guys ever been dare for me wen iym in need?

i dont think so.

what happend last year is repeating itself.

everyone is acting as if i was not dare.

tyms tt iym in need, u guys were not dare.

why? i was wrong. MY FAULT!

ryte? why cant u guys just talk to me or sumthing?

would it kill to talk to someone tt u dont lyk?

does it kil u to talk to me abt anything?

no ryte? i dont noe if i hav been dare foer u guys,

but i think i had. wen u need sumthing, sumtimes u guys approach me ryte?

i donnoe wats goin tu happen.

mayb its not true tt frens are better den family.

or mayb i dont deserve any frens at all?

'this is de kind of fren tt iym having? den better off not having any ryte? slalu nk gado2!! slalu tk suke each other. iym trying to settle dis probs for edm. en if dis wat is going to happen, den jus forgeddit. no point of having a fren if dis is wat dey giv in return. i prefer not having any of dem. trying to solve di prob btwn us but luk wat happen? all of dis turned upside dwn. everthing's tumbbled up. mayb i shud jus walk away. mayb i shud jus ignore dem an do my own things. jus ignore dem. trusting ppl has no more place in my mind. i donnoe hu tu trust. all dis is happening again. jus lyk bfor. yeah. mayb? i hav being situated in a place lyk dis. ware every one thinks tt iym stabbing dem on de back. all iym tring tu do is jus resolve dis SHIT! mayb, i don deserve gud frens at all. i dont noe wats goin tu happen. yeah. no frens. AGAIN! lyk bfort. wat to deo? to bad for me den.'

wat i wrote jus now if u guys wanna noe. almost cried. no matter wat. ur still my darlinks. =)

'ellaTERBIATZ_*

8:31 PM

Twitter Updates