sometimes,
i really feel unappreciated.
well, fuck everything.

prey for me cos iym afraid of falling.

&no. fireworks didnt brighten my day anymore.
i just want you to be here with me.
not the other way round, just like it has always been.

i still love you, no matter how much i hate you. ok?


ONE DAY, SHE WILL TELL YOU
THAT SHE HAS HAD ENOUGH.
okeh?

iym close to giving up.
iym close to slashing.

just shut up cos i dont want to hear anything right now.
dont bother to ask me why.
cos basically, iyll shake my head &say its nothing.

&to my dear friends,
you dont have to worry.
i still love myself &dont want to die now.
thanks for the consern anyway.
i love you guys. [=


ferst &foremost,


HAPPY really late belated BIRTHDAY HAIRI NOOR AZMAN!
hehehe. i hope you like the card. &iyll always love you my 'boyfriendddddd' !
[=

so! i guess iyll update once a week laa. ive been busy lately. iym booked by homeworks, assignments, dates, &stuffs la. haha.

i think i really have serious stm la. i cant even rmb what happen last week. haha. tapy seriously uhh! i cant rmb what happen! Qilaaaa Qilaa. tsktsktsk.

so, Friday, everyone was talking abt pc. so kecoh la okeh? many cant get tickets cos its limited. very limited la okeh? from tickets to clothes. many donnoe wat to wear &stuffs. so kecoh mannnnn. okok. we had a 'half-day' which is pathetic. 1hr earlier. i mean, really uhh, so pathetic.

went to Lot with Icaa. ryte? haha. go walk2. &i have no idea what happened cos i cant rmb! haiyoooo! rabak la okeeeh? but yeah. i miss going to Lot with Icaaaa after school. haiyaa. wat to do? hmmm.

went home, relaxed fer a while. but i didnt get my sleep! grrrr. hahaa. go take my looong cold shower which took me 30mins plus. waited fer gfMeeerah to call, went over to her place to help her siap2. i curled her hair quater-way, then, she gatal wants it straight. Lyn had to hurry back shcool to take the corset thinggy which they left. -____-" &patheticly, Ckgu Rahmat took it alrd. waited fer Lydia &suddenly, the whole room became so kecoh. me &Meeerah &Anis were right. kan kan kan? haha

off to Lot while they headed to town to have LJS fer lunch. tsktsktsk. so fat. hahaha. reached interchange, met pkcik &friends. they played pool fer a while &off to board the train. met Miraaaaa in the train. &yes, we laughed like hell thanks to pkcik &Tarm with their kecoh-ness.

i really felt like going home when we reached Raffels MRT laaa. i really did. the whole place reminds me of last year. my close ones shld know. Icaa shld know, Miraaa shld know, Lydia shld know, Meeerah shld know, &Rashid, i know you wld definately know. ryte? so, hmm, i dont wanna care anymore la.&i just kept quiet &proceed.

the consert was okeh la. it was almost te same as last year's. but cheers for Khair &Amad for the beatboxing & woof whistles to Elydia for her superb vocals ¬ forgetting Firman too! tho his 'sengau2' reminds me of Taufik Batisah. haha!

after tt, some commotions were happening outside VCH. i dont wanna know what laa. terserempak with Miraaa, Wana, Iman, Yanie &Yasmin. then proceed to makansutra &had our dinner. ermmmm, we kinndaf walked the loong was thanks to Dizzie. thanks eekhh? haha. terserempak with 'boyfrienddddd'! haha. &Sheek &Waty if iym not wrng, &Haziq &they all laaa at Esp.

so, we searched for a spot &settled down. ramai siooollll!
Me, Farah, Lisz, Bazila, Dickerz, Fash, Epuull, Harris, Hady, Shahrul. saper lagy ekhs? i think tts it laa. ramai la kay? had dinner &they got high. &i dont wanna know abt it. haha! blablabla. took 171 &they were so kecoh in the bus. but after a while, ramai da game. lemau saaakk. haha. including aku la. hehe.

pkcik &Dizzie sent me home. they met my mother. haha! abeh cuak? reached home, random shits laaa. haha. &bye.

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh! pnjg nyerrr!
haha. i realised tt i like to go into detail. i can really summarise all these paragraphs into one short one, bvut since iym bored, i decided to go into detail. haha. =P

i gosok-ed my uniform. &bloody hell i have PE tomorrow!
&if Mdm Mas is back, we'll have detention! haiyaaaaa.
&&can i grow taller? mayb like Natasha? haha. she's tall. okeh random.

tc toodels!


TAG REPLIES!
nisaaa ; TIDAK! i dont want my pkcik to be botak! haha. &i know you miss him.
miraaa (: ; haha. computer aku rosak kaaan. nah amek ko. aku post pnjg2. hehe.
Lue : ohh hello Izzul! iyll link ya up soon oryte? [=
♥ YANIE ; ehh HAI! hahaha. =P
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hello hello.

haha. fine. ive not been updating cos this stupid computer is being such an ass lately! grrrr. either it wld take me millions of 'restart' bfor i can run properly, or it wld jus switch off by is own. stupid ryte? urgh. even my MP4 has virus, bcos of this stupid comp laaaaa! grrrrr. bengaappppp!

okeh. ive been feeling sleepy lately. but sumpah idk why. mayb iym not used to my situation now. where i have loads of assignments to be finished, &ending up sleeping early in the morning. urghhhh. iym suuuperrr tireddddd!

i basically forgot everything abt last week. so, byebye to that. hmm, Saturday, went out with them. it was fun but soo tireing. it was kinddaf pathetic all at ferst. bengaaappp. idk la whose idea was it to merajok ferst. &sumpah idk why the hell i had to be the one who had to talk ferst. bengaaapppp. hahhaa. but yeah, i enjoyed it. kinddaf. haha. =P

so, Monday, i totally forgot. Tuesday, i aslo forgot. Wednesday, malay dance? haha. Thursday, detention cancelled. &i hate sudden mood swings. pantatt. bengaapppp!

Friday, ScienceCenterrr! yeayyyyy! i love love love love Chemistryyyyyyyyy! [= it brightened up my day! &i just love exploring ScienceCenter &behaving like a little girl all over again! saying 'ehh cool!' over &over &over again. jakon kaaann. diam laaa. haha. ohhh iym falling in love with Science deeper. nono. Chemistry. Physics? not yet laa. hahhaa.

so, after tt, watched the soccer match at school. TPB vs. DICKERS ft. F7 &others. lemau laaaa. gado jerrkk. haha. evenso, i think they played a good match. 1-1 draw. i think they wld have another match soon. haha. idk laa. Lydia mcm extra la gitu kn support TPB. yg laen sumer support the other team. nyehnyehnyeh~

&Wan sang! woohooo! hahhaa. long time since he sang right into my ears. awwwww, meltss. haha! waited for pkcikk at the field's gate. blang aku, saper nk gik canteen? mcm2 bau aderrrrr. haha! mrepeeekkkkkkk. steng'ed a rambutan with Fash. haha. then go walk to this block, which i forgot where, sat fer awhile, then off to KFC with pkcik &Fash. dinner &went home.

Saturday, went out with pkcik &Hadii &erm, Howard? pls? idk his name. haha. it was fun as usuall. i cant stop laughing when i go out with them. they are like these 3 laughing machines la okehh? we had no idea of where to go, so headed to town. LJS at FarEast but gfMeeerah havent masok keje yet. LuckyPlaza'ed, Heeren'ed. bumped into Icaaaaa & Zaini. then. headed to Esp to watch fireworks! its so fun i tell you! yeeaaahhh. tho i was like a little kid standing on the edges of my toes cos basically, IYM SHORT. thankyou. [= haha. but i really love the fireworks. it really cheered up my tried loooong day. headed home. &yeah.

OHH YES! i saw Khairul Amri &Shahril Ishakkkkkkkkkkkk! nyahahaa! tt made me smile frm ear to ear. hehehe.

Sunday is awful la okeeehhh? pantattttt! madrasah was as usuall, i came 1hr 15mins late as usuall. after tt, had my short nap &was dragged to BPP for the launching of some fitness thinggy at BP. like at last! a gym is going to be in BP! yeayy! haha. after tt, went to my anak sedare's cuko rmbt, went to atok's place. ohh cute babies are bite-able! haha. so tired. &hell yeah it was so borink. really bad day. not mentioning it to anyone. so, its common sense tt i dont mention it here. haha.

but thankyou pkcik for tt cute msg. it kinndaf brighten up my day. i laughed. it is sweet + nonsensical + funny + merepek + cute. haha. &yeah. i want you to support me &be behind me thru everything. ilyvm okeh? [=

so, today? nth much laaa. we had dance class after school! yeayyy!
i partnered with my 'boyfieeeeeeeeeeeeeeee'! hahaa. &he's not bad la okehh? he got the steps right. i mean reall quick. good job. i i got the steps right too! yeay for me! kehehehe.

Lot1'ed after tt. ate at KFC, teman'ed Nunu to buy the heart rainbow bookmark, went to library &went home. &i kinnda forgot what Icaaaa &me talked abt. haha! selengerrrr. &yeasss. i still have Emaths poster to be done, 2 English homeworks, Social Studies, Chemistry, some more? haha. idk la pls? hehe.

&so, there you go. a suuuuuuuuuuper looooooooong post. heheh.
tc toodelss!

you never fail to make this heart of mine melt.
making me fall for you kisses,
making me fall for your hugs.
i swear iyll never throw them away.
&i cant wait till next time,
till i can hear you heart beating again,
when i rest my head on your chest.
&untill tt day comes,
i swear tt id love you even more.


hello makcik2 &pakcik2 sekeliannnnnnnn. haha

iym suuuuuuper tired. came back at 10.10. haha. but no nags. yeayyy! -_____-" hahha.

sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo,
the conclusion is tt i love today. tho its tireing. [=

go bowling. mendaaaakk. watched them bowl. & my 'boyfieeeeee' is super good at it. ceyhts! haha. pkcikkkk was late. bengaaapppppp. so bored. no one layan me. haha. listened to my MP4 until batt stenga la okeeehhh? hahaa. ate @ Alif somewhere at BukitGombak, i think. then bid our goodbyes &separated.

who ever said tt double dates are enjoyable? haha!
mayb its bcos both had moments of quarreling sessions here &there. haha.
mayb its bcos we had to walk in &out of lorongs &cross stupid roads. HAHA!

or mayb its bcos we had to watch 2 pro's playing pool.
bengaaappp! haha. borink la pantattt! haha. but it was fun looking at how the game is played. i understood the game la okeeehhh? hahaha. ate &went to some block.

pkcik was sleepy tho it was suppose to be his 'energetic' time. -_____-"
blablabla &me &Icaaaaaaaa whined to go home. haha. bye2 to Icaaaaaa &singah-ed Lot1 for ermm, dinner. haha.

waited for the 2nd bus to arrive &went home.
'bye pkcikkkkkkkkk!' haha.

now here i am, with my white spaghetti top &3/4 pants, typing awayyyy.

ehh pantattttt!
BESOK PE LAAAA! BENGAAAPPPPPPP!

urgh! i hate PE's on the ferst day of the week. very leceh you know? alahaiiiiiiii. iyll pengsan tmr. trust me. iym shucca lazy ass to run or even jog! conferm ader suicide run or watever its called laaa. pantat la bengaaaapppp! urghhhh.

&i still have piles &piles of homework to be done.
Chemistry, English, Combine Humans, Amaths? &my Emaths project is still left untouched laa. urgh! so many things to do! haiyooo. haha.

oryte. iyll go wash the dishes, iron my uniform &PE shirt, maybe finish some homeworks.
after tt, straight to sleep pls? haha.

okok. till next time la okeh? haha.

tc toodelssss!




& did i mention tt i love you so?








pls ignore tt stupid face of mine.
de ferst pic was random tho. haha.

cute ryte?
tts my anak sedare. Aliya Adriani. i think so. haha.
so clever when comes to taking pictures. hahhahaa.
went to my aunt's wedding thinggy. was so bored lorrrr!
ohh yaa. all my anak sedare &sedare's are suuuuper hyper okehh? run here, run there. &when they fall, they stand up, look at the ppl who are staring &doing nth to help, &run again! haha. cute ryttteee?

haiyoooo. iym a makcik to 9 anak sedare's! omg! iym so old! haha. but pity my pkcik who is only 14 years old. he has cucu alrd okeh? imagine tt! gosh! haha. rabak la oiii. hahha.

so, went to mesjid just now, was bored la ekhs?

hmmmmm, conferm, tmr i wld wake up late. haha! but i dont care! i have to go out. yeaaaaaa! &nope, not with IF. i dont think tt there's IF anymore. how sad seyhh. i miss IF like pantat but what to do? i cant change ppl's mind &force them to tag along when they don't want ryte? haha.
yaya. watever.

so! as i was saying, have to wake up early tmr laaa. pantattt! asked Icaaaaaaaaaaa to wake-up-call-my-house. haha. harap2 tk pagi sngt laa. i want to enjoy my sleep larhh. hahaha.

hmm, i want everything to turn out BEST tmr. i really dont want things to cock up or smth lyddat.
i dont want anything to ruin my day tmr. i want it to be perfect. so i can jolt dwn happy things in my diary.
please? preeeeety pleeeasee! haha. okeh. mrepek lorrrr.

oryte then, iym off!

tc toodels!









didnt i once said tt i miss IF family.
hmmmm, looks like no more now.

i want to sleep laaaa.
its alrd 2.58am.

&fyi, you can be straightfoward with me.
i hate beat ard the bush-es la bodoo!

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