i feel like blogging EVERYTHING, but i have nothing to say.
even if i HAVE smth to say, i dont know how to put it in words.

GAAAAAHHHH!
i hate my family. so what?
who doesnt love their parents? WELL I DONT!
fuck you lahhh. i know tt you'r my mother, but hey! be understanding a lil bit uhh! what? you thing you'r my mom then you can set ALL the rules for me? WHATEVER HOKAYY?!
you want to know why i hate you so much? you want to know why i dont care if your gone? you want to know why i cant get myself to love you?
SIMPLE! you dont even show that you even love me in the first place. yahh yahh. you say tt you 'ikat perot' and shits&stuffs 'JUST FOR ME'. so what? you say tt you love me. so what? you dont SHOW tt you love me anyway. RYTE?
it hurts so bad when you say you love me. i even cry when you say those words cos i know, deep inside, you dont. but wait. thoses 3 words. how many times have you said it to me? countable lah ekhhhh?
dont be a hypocrite here lah hokayy? dont try to become someone else when you'r outside. becomming someone how SEEMS o be suuuuuuuuuuuper caring and friendly la okehh?
i dont care if iym a 'anak derhake' cos i make you cry. its my pleasure lah okeh? all this while, YOU made my life miserable. so what if i go nerake? its all bcos of you what. ryte? you would b happy then ryte?
ohh ya! iym happy to leave this stoopid fucking house any time lah horr. i dont care. once i leave this house, i wont come back. I DONT CARE! let's see who would be suffering okehh?
go on and beat me all you want. ive become immune to all you'r slaps, pinches, beatings, kickings &stuffs la ekh?
SHOW ME SOME RESPECT AND IYLL SHOW YOU SOME.

sometimes, i feel tt no one cares. SERIOUS.
eventho i have my darling gerlfies &boyfies, somehow, sometimes, i fell tt they dont care. eventho mayb they do care.
actually, i dont want to tell all my probs to them. i dont want them to get worried abt my probs when they themselves have their own probs.
mayb i just cant take it anymore. i cant run away frm my probs ryte? it will just become bigger and bigger.
yes yes. ive done stoopid stuffs just to get away frm my probs. IYM SORRY OKEHH? i just cant help it. i know it doesnt help me in solving my probs, but somehow, its a way for me to relese my anger.
i dont want to 'burden' them by sharing or 'throwing' all my probs at them everytime. somethimes, i pity them for always having to listen to my shits&stuffs. i know someday, they would get bored of listening.
i apologise if i suddenly throw tantrums & when my stoopid mood swings occur. its them who will comfort me. its them who would never fail to cheer me up.
thank you guys. i really appreciate all of your care&consern. iyll love you guys till death can? no one is ever gonna replace you guys. i dont know how iym gonna repay you guys. 17 hundred thousand thank you's wont be able to be enough. =]

supposed to go out with either my dearest IF family or my dearest TRIPLETS&Indra today.
but nooooooo. i cant go out. why? cos ive been G R O U N D E D! best lahh heyyyyyyyy!
i cant go out until like what? April? WTF SAK! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!
iym suuuuupaaa duuuuuuuuupaa GERAM la hokayyy?!

somehow, i feel like quitting school. hahahaha. seriouss! i dont know why?
somehow, i feel tt there's no longer any reason for me to be living. i dont know why?
somehow, i feel like iym useless &just a piece of crap. i dont know why?
somehow, i feel tt living this life is plain stoopid. i dont know why?
somehow, i feel like killing myself. i dont know why?
somehow, i feel tt i love more than iym being loved. i dont know why?
somehow, i feel tt iym blessed to have found suuuperr caring gerlfies&boyfies. i dont know why?
somehow, i feel tt iym being cursed to be growing up with such a fucking-shit-like environment. i dont know why?
somehow, i feel like having crunchie ryte now. wld 17 hundred be enough? hmm. i dont know why?
somehow, i feel like ive been interfering someone's life but dont know who? i dont know why?
somehow, i feel like iym hiding someting frm myslef but dont know what is it. i dont know why?
somehow, i feel like running away from this living hell this minute. i dont know why?
somehow, i feel tt i like someone but donnoe who? i dont know why?
somehow, i feel like singing jiwang song this very moment. i dont know why?
somehow, i feel tt i dont even know who i am actually. i dont know why?
somehow, i feel tt i really really really love my darlink gerlfies&boyfies but i hate them at the same time. i dont know why?
somehow, i feel tt ive been repeating this thing for already SEVENTEEN times & i seriously dont know why?
why uhh? hahaha. =P

ryte now. iym confused over a mixture of feelings which i cant even describe.
angry, bored, HUNGRY, happy, tired, sleepy and mooooore lahh can?

yesyes.





I LOVE MY DEAREST TRIPLETS!
I LOVE MY DARLING IF FAMILY!
iym loving EVERY-SINGLE-ONE of you. =]

and and and not forgetting,
AZAH ,INDRA ,FIK, AIDA, ABG ZAINI, DIAH, SHA, SYLVIA, ZUL BACEN, FAD,
& MY MALAY DANCE PEE-POLE!

come on. give me a reason to live. someone?
now, why am i watching Channel News Asia? lets change channel yeahhs? haha.

so! iym suuuuuuuperrr sorry to those peeps who tagged me. this blog has been abandoned for lke a loooooooong time la ekhs?
haha. so! PICTURE TIME! like ive promised. =] sry if the pics are too big. photobucket has been shitty. haha.
















okeh done.
sorry again if the pics are too big. pffft!

ohh ya! here's some pics on Monday. no time fer editing laa. -__-"
pssstt! iym loving you guys more&more lahh heyy! =]

ferst shot is always powerrrrrr!~


i dont wanna grow up, iymma Toys'R'Us kid. =P


ooooookkkehhhh. ha!


emmm..


Lydia. -__-"


Mirah. -__-"


Fash. 'baek uhh. aku playboy.' -__-"!


at Toys'R'Us


Lydia wanted to enphasize on how big my eyes are. (@_@")


i lerff this pic. nyaha!


1, 2, 3. yea. -__-"


yesyes.


you know i love you guys.


look. Lydia's hair so PERANG. haha


Fish&Fash.


otw home.


and lastly, ME! =]


shout out to all my beloved gerlfies&boyfies! I LERFF YOU GUYS! =]
thanks fer being there for me whenever iym in need.
making me smile everytime iym not in the mood.
thank you for all youve done. =]
iyll seriously DIE w/o you guys la hokayyy?
truckloads of smooches for everyone. MUUUUUUAAAAACCCCKKKKKSSSS! =]
heeee~

oooookehh. now iym bored. and they are back frm town. SO FAST! kentot bacennnnn. haha.
nth more to say. if you want. wait fer my next post.
which probably be 17 more days later. haha. =]
okeh bye!

toodels!
deBLURRgerl ;
DWI MANGKUJIWO ((:

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