Sunday, April 22, 2007
i dont know where to start.
is it a lie if i say tt i hate my family?
is it a lie if i say tt my family hates me?
i dont know. i serously dont.
just cut the crap.
you dont know me. you dont understand me.
yes iym your daughter. so?
its always me you'r scholding, threatening, raising your voice to. why?
yes i know its me fault. yes i know i deserve to get scholdings. but why only me? why dont you schold my other siblings for their wrongs too? why has it always been me? why?
there you go, always ruining my perfect day. dont you have anything better to do? like ruining my other siblings' day? someone was trying to make me feel better after you gave me a lecture. and again. there you go, without fail, interrupting my happy conversation by snatching the phone, screaming at my friend and slamming down the phone. hello? where's your respect?
thanks again for ruining my fabulous day. i really appreciate it.
& thanks for throwing my ppd card into the fish tank. =]
yah. i HAD a great day.
so, i enjoyed myself. singing, playing cards, getting tried, pespireing, laughing, slacking, eating &enjoying. i have to admit it was kinddaf dry. but its okeh. i still enjoy parts when they played the guitar &sang nonsense, 'the cousin' dancing dangdut, the 'hantam-bo-chai'ed karaoke, the card games, the jokes, the long longkang walk, the boring gig, everything.
thnx Nisa fer accompany-ing me. altho it was kinddaf dry, i appreciate your accompany. thank you fer being my kakak for the day. haha. =] thank you for everything. you'r the best! & i love you to bits no matter what! =]
thnx Fish fer the invite first of all. thnx fer the fun times. & i really appreciate you chang-ing me eventho you were alrd tired. haha. sorry fer tt. & of cos. thnx fer being there fer me, cheering me up. i really appreciate it. you sensed my sorrow eventho i tried to keep it cool. i love you! & iyll be there for you too oryte? you wont loose me lah. stop spouting nonsensical stuffs okeh? ku syg kamu alot alot!
loads have been happening.
time and again, i've been putting myself and others down.
studies, friends and of cos, CCA.
somehow, i dont know how i manage to juggle these things.
i have to. iym forced to.
iym speechless for SYF. i think the judges were pfft! we deserve a gold. ohh well, whatever lahh. what's done is done. i cant do anything about it. yes i cried buckets, i was totally disappointed. but i knocked some sense in my head &convinced myself tt it was alright. no matter what, i love dancing. its good to fail. bcos failiure would lead to success. =]
i hope to do well in my mid years. i really do. i want to prove to my family tt iym SOMETHING useful. iym not stuipd. indeed iym clever. iyll beat my siblings' aggrigate scores. it's a challenge i made fer myself. &when i achieve it, then it's my life tt iym controlling. not you.
iyll work hard. i think. the problem is, iym a lazy ass. haha. ryte.
Shab is ryte, D&T is cintaaa-! =]
haha. i loooooove D&T! can't wait to finish our lamp design. even Mr Azhar can't wait to see Sha's & my final product. ohhhhh! i love D&T! =]
to close friends tt i totally love &would probably die w/o you guys,
I LOVE YOU TILL DEATH! =]
ohh yess! I MISS IF FAMILY LIKE PFFT!
even Fish says so. :'(
&i know Allah loves me. tt's why HE's testing me. i love you Allah. =]
oryte lah. till my next looooong post!
tc toodels!
&thanks Lydia fer posting! ilyvm! dont sad2 kay? =]
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