Sunday, April 01, 2007
helo la ekh? haha.
i dont know what to blog abt. eventho i have loads to say. -____-"
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can i say tt i miss you? seriously. YOU. yah you. gaaaah. i cant erase all of our memories away. they seem to come flooding back into my mind after we contacted each other fer a while. mayb the fact is, i need you. you were there fer me, seriously you were. thru ups &most of all, downs. you cared abt me so much. well, you did.
i just cant accept the fact tt i lost you to this person. why? after you broke up, you became closer to her and i just seem to dissappear frm you'r life. what happened to those words? what happened to those care &consern you gave? what even happened to us?
you made a huge impact to my life. you were as if my superhero. the one tt saved me frm evil-beings. what happened to all that?
gahhhh! if i can slap you'r face, i would. trust me. iym super angry at you for leaving me hanging just like that. it's like suddenly POOF! you'r gone. just like that. times tt i needed you the most, you were'nt there anymore.
but i feel like hungging you lah. cos i miss you you'r care.
gaaahhhhhhh!
you left me fer tt person.
you left me suffering alone w/o you by my side.
you left me empty promisses.
get this straight ;
I MISS YOU SOO TRUCKLOADS, SUUPPERRR DEEEP-DUUUUP-ER-LY MUCH!
seems tt no matter how many times i say it, you wont seem to understand. you ARE my special one. i realise now tt i need you much2 more. but then i realise tt you wont b there fer me anymore. but, ahh! forget it.you know what you guys? have you ever wondered? have you been there fer anyone? anyone at all? when he/she is high, you wld be high with him/her. when he/she is down &crying, you wld b at the end of the phone line or lending him/her a shoulder to cry on. not only you lah. have you'r 'friends' ever done that? have they?
shut up cos iym not even sure if i have.
everyone! just stop it! PLEASE la kay?
dont say tt you wld b there if you wont.
dont say tt you love me when you dont.
dont pretend to care if deep inside you dont.
&&! dont care fer me so much untill i rely on you on everything and then leave me all alone, no one to rely on anymore.
can? PLEASE THANK YOU VERY MUCH! =]
--------------------------------------so! malay dance is now much much better. yeay! alhamdulillah. =]
hopefully, there wld b no more fights, quarrels or merajok-s. everyone seems to be more serious, tt's what ive been asking for all this while. i hope tt we wld continue to b serious &work super hard to achieve gold! nono. GOLD WITH HONOUR! weehee! many said tt our peformance was superb! keep it up guys! i love you, my malay dance pee-pole! eem, i think. haha =]
AND! studies? haha! SHOCKING la kay? amazingly, i got good results fer CA1 la seyh! especially Physics. A1 la horr. haha. i got third in Chemistry, which had me looking blurr-blurr, asking wether MrOng really called my name. haha! D&T got me an A2, which was wow-wow-wee! eventho its not an A1, iym still happy with it. but the killer is A.Maths la kayy? C5 la horr! kentot masamm. -____-"
need to buck up on my studies, ESP MATHS! been sleepy fer English &History lessons laar. borink kay?
homeworks are like PETHE la kay? loads of hw not done! Eng &Hist the most. huha! dont belif, ask Hairi, my BUDDY! haha. =P now, iym like having dificulties coping w/ my studies la kay? ive been skipping lessons just fer SYF practices. i know its important to everyone. its imp to me as well. but its affecting my studies REALLY bad. i know its only 1 week left, but, gaaahhh! do you know how imp D&T is to me? SYF practices are eating away my time fer D&T! grrrr!
ohh yaa! SORRY to Mira, cos i cant celebrate her bday w/ her due to SYF practice. grrrrr. iyll make it up to you one day. & yahh. dont jealous me by showing tt choco cake you got laaaaaaaaa! haha. =P
& did i mention tt i have a new boyfie? who? D&T of cos! haha. lame ryte? shaddap. but its true! iym in love with D&T la seyh! eventho i wld get stressed up cos my designs are like shit, its okehh. haha. it cracks my brain to find new and 'up to standard' design. good. why? it helps me forget my problems as iym too occupied in thinking. hehe. =]
hmm, i seem to fade in any group now. i just cant seem to understand why? iym not loud anymore issit? why am i dissappearing in everyone's life uhh? bacen-ness. haha. =P
went to Sha's place the other day. Her family 'invited' me to join their dinner at Al-Azhar. wow-wow-wee! shucca long time never eat there. been eating at Al-Amin only. its like CEYDEBAK la seyh! all up standard alrd la seyh! haha. serious! =]
dikir barat is fun-er. yesaa. masam-ness. haha. i enjoy it cos i dont know a single thing but i manage to follow everything they are learning in a snap. =]
went to the Anugerah thinggy my my re-united terbiatz systa, the one &only SMS. haha. Sharizan Mhd Sakuan. hahhaa. we waited fer Fish fer one whole hour kay? kala kn pmpn seyh! haha. then met Wan &the rest. me &Sha WERE being two extra KIDS there la. so shaddap. thnk you Fish fer layan-ing us all the way. sorry fer causing you to miss that bus they took w/o waiting fer us. no wait. waiting fer you. =] took loads of pics in the bus otw home, making 'pau' face while laughing non stop. only God &Sha knows what i mean. haha.overall, i had fun!
i had no mood fer madrasah today. i went out at 9 when iym supposed to reach there by 9. i reached there at 10. haha. so wat? iymm suuperr moody today. haha. watever.
& Nisa says she loves me! i love you too Ngong! =]
befor i forget,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SYAHRU!may all your wishes come true yahhs? sry for getting you into trouble due to SYF pratices. all the best in life okeh bro? feel free to update me on anything and everything like you used to. haha. & thanks fer blanje-ing me sweet talk the other day. =] truckloads of kisses!
tc toodels!
--------------------------------------those memories. hah!
"
When you left I lost a part of me
It’s still so hard to believe
Come back baby please 'cause
We belong together
Who else am I gonna lean on when times get rough
Who’s gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who’s gonna take your place
There ain’t nobody better
Oh baby baby
We belong together"
"
I can't forget how we used to be
Our life from day to day
Hoping maybe you'll come back
And though I tell myself not to be afraid
To move on but it seems I can't"
"
I can't explain this feeling
I think about it everyday
And even though we've moved on
It gets so hard to walk away"
"
It's so hard to express this feeling
Cause nobody comes best to you"
"
namun, takkan mudah bagiku meninggalkan jejak hidup mu,
yang tlah terukir abadi,
sebagai kenangan yang terindah."
10:37 PM
