Sunday, August 05, 2007
hello you. yes you. i dedicate this post to you okeh? so read it.
i got this idea frm you. you once said to write my feelings to my parents if iym shy to talk to them. so, i applied the same consept. but now, everyone can read. &crack their brains to fighure out who you are. haha. &no worries to my close ones. iyll drop a few clues so you'd probably know who iym referring to laa. okeh? but one rule, dont ask me abt this post. just act like this post was never here. i cant tke it anymore, so let me pour it out here okeh? thank you.
so, let me start.
we started last year. middle of the year to be exact. you started to become close to me &i started liking your company. within a short period of time, we became from strangers to super close friends. your friendship was meaningful to me. its really meaningful i tell you. we shared problems, my problems to be exact. &i remembered your exact words, 'mesti ader hikmah disebalik sume ni'. ryte? those words, i really belived in it. &yeah. my life got better. thanks to you.
you were brave. asking me out, when you know you shldnt cos you were with someone ryte? but you didnt care. we went for lunchs &even movies. i really love going out with you. the never ending laughters &fun we had. memories tt are still kept somewhere in my heart. never forgotten.
i miss those times. the long talks on the phone until morning, you singing to me &playing the guitar, you being there for me each &every time i need you without fail, you being at the end of the line each time iym crying. omg, i just miss you so much. but i guess this all dont mean anything to you. cos you forgot abt me in a snap. after you met girl, i seem to fade away. yaya. after you broke up, you didnt even look at me. you just went straight to her. i dont know why. untill now. iym still clueless.
i guess everyone shld be thingking, 'tk tau malu ker dek ni nk ckp gini? aper jer..' well, so what?
i hope this didnt come out wrong. iym not crazy over you or some insane stalker or anything like tt. i just miss you thats all. i miss everything abt you. i keep telling myself this, if you dont care, why shld i? if you can easily move on &act as if i no longer exist, then why cant i? somehow, everything reminds me of you. &what made it worse? the holidays. yah. the exact period of time i spent with you just passed. yahh. i struggled thru tt point of time. holidays, public consert &everything. it just made me miss you even more.
well, let me just summarise this whole thing.
i miss you. i really do. i dont care if you dont miss me. i just wanted you to know what i felt. at the times i really needed you, you werent there anymore &iym fully aware of tt. i guess its really hard for me to forget cos youre the only one tt iym suuper close to w/o being in a relationship with. friendships like this only come once ot twice. so i guess i lost mine.
so, i guess thats it. i cant do anything abt it. well, good luck in everything you do okeh? i really appreciate those times you were with me. &i regret crying for you each time i listen to that song.
you know, iym really shock to see tt you actually beep'ed me at msn after all this while.
anayways, thanks for everything. i really appreciate it. thank you. [=
no hard feelings okeh?
----------------------------------------------------------ookeeehhh. byebye to that. haha.
iym bored. &the ndp preview was stupid laaaaaaaa. no fireworks. bengap btl. haha.
okeh. iym sorry but i really have no modd to type anymore.
so, bye!
tc oryte ppl? [=
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