Sunday, July 20, 2008
i feel so superhuman
feeling ghetto. XDok, im bored. so, beware! long post coming up! haha.
did i ever tell you tt fireworks cld brighten up even my dullest day? haha. serious! i go gaga over fireworks mannnnnnnnn! i watched fireworks last saturday. :DDDDDDDDD u can ask the rest, i was acting like a small kid. haha. literally. serious! esp when the airshow. i was jumping &pointing to the sky like a small kid. haha. &when the fireworks started, i stood rooted with my eyes wide open &smiling like there's no tmr. haha. SERIOUS! hahaha. :DDDDD
but before tt, i had to rush frm school to AMK to watch Fiestari! congrats girls for winning 3rd &best costume! :DDDDDDDDDwell, this week has been #$(!$%^&(&$@^&*(%@)!@#^& haha. serious! everyday has been like a chore to me. i seriously dont feel like going to school. when i think back, my studies really really dropped like downhill rabak nye. it all began in the middle of last year. i dont want to remind myself of it. neither will i want to blame anyone. but, haiyaa. it's true, it was the biggest mistake of my life. look at my grades at the begining to mid last year and compare it to then onwards. gaaaahh. i know im not stupid. but, certain factors just influenced me too much till i become stupid.
haha. ok. tt was random.
im really stressed out with d&t. the deadline is next saturday &im not even 75% there yet. what's worse? Mr Sean is overseas. haiyaaaa. stress stress stress stress stress stress! gaaaahhh! yaya, you might be saying tt you also have alot to be done. but mine is much much much more than yours! im really really afraid tt i cant make it. i almst cried in workshop on thursday. i almst gave up. i almst wanted to break everything into two. i almst lost my temper to my classmates. but seriously, i was damn frustrated with the stupid artefact. gaahhh. &for just now, i really felt like shouting back. why? cos the first thing tt i hear was, 'you just came? might as well you dont come. everyone's going home soon alrd.' &when i asked ard, everyone was indeed going off soon. i was like cursing in my heart laa. mfcb. haha.
org da smgt2 dtg, titibe je ckp tu mcm.let me tell you what's left for me to do for d&t.
1. file the slots for the acrylic
2. do milling for the wood piece for the drawer
3. drill a halfway hole for the rod to be placed
4. bend the rod for the pole for hangers
5. make the outside shell for the whole thing
i)figure out how big the shell is suppose to be
ii)figure out how to do the slots for making it able to move in &outiii)figure out how is the battery cell compatrtment is suppose to be placed
6. think for a colour tt suits the target user7. coat all wooden pieces with car party
8. spray paint the artefact
9. think abt the wireing
10. assembly of all parts
yup, tts a lot right? fine. you dont even have a clue f what im talking abt. but you get what im trying to show right? tt i have loads of work to be completed by the end of next week. plus, i have to do all this by myself. yes. MYSELF. no teacher to guide me. gaaaaaaaaaahhhhh.
i was very quiet this week. idk why? wait, i do know why. haiya, its just tt i cant explain it. haha. why am i saying this anyway? its as if ppl notice. well, mayb a couple laa. its ok. i still have the handfull of them. like seriously,a friend in need is a friend indeed right? i have a 'look for me only when you need me' stamped big on my forehead. hahaa.
you know what? i really feel like giving up on you guys. why the hell shld i care anymore? right? you dont even give a fucking shit abt me. i held back my tears for three whole days. i kept silent for the whole week. but who noticed? none of you. NONE! i cried when i went home frm school just now. i did. i cldnt take it anymore. i cried inside the bus &all my way to my door step. i cried cos i really cant stand it anymore. its like you treat me as if im invisible. for 1 whole year, i had to put up with this. &now, i have to put up with this again? wth laa. mayb its really true, yr just self centered. you dont care abt ppl. wait, you dont care abt me. what are friends for? tell me? argh! heck care, cos i know tt i have 2 ppl who got my back. assholes. mfcb. grrrrr!yaya, ok. haha. went to Bras Basah alone just now. haha.
da biase da klua sorg2. haha. it was much fun-er than i thot it wld be mannnn! haha. i like rounded Art Friend like more than 10 times. felt like grabbing everything &buy the whole store! haha. loads of cool stuffs there. DIY stuffs. i bough some stuffs to
do i myself. haha. the mirror was super expensive like can faint! haha. but still, its good quality, so, yah. after tt, i was craving for famous amos. &yes, this crazy person went frm Bugis to town just to buy famous amos. at last, i bought Ayie brownie frm Mc Cafe. haha. but i felt good cos oi spoilt myself with yummy stuffs. heh.
went to Ayie's bday party after tt. really had fun playing games with the 3 girls. waaaahhhhh. damn sad man tt my childhood days were'nt tt fun. i miss my childhood days! the song for the game is still stuck in my head cos it was so fun! i must admit, i was behaving like the 3 girls. literally man! hahaha. Mira shld know.
Tarzan the monkey man, sitting on the rubber band. hop-scotch and rubber band, what colour do you want.while singing, we slap the hand of the person next to us, clockwise. the last person will get too choose what colour. the colour wld be spelled &one letter is one hand slap. the last hand tt's been slapped will be out. haha. come on, imagine! haha. after tt, the 3 girls drew me a picture of what i looked like. very cute! haha.
ayte laa. this post has been very wordy. haha.
so long &good night! :DDDDDDDDDDDD
trust me when i say i miss you, when i say i need yr hug. why? cos i know tt when im with you, i'll be alright, i'll feel safe to forget abt everything ard me. trust me when i say tt my heart still skips a beat each time you sat there next to me, when i say tt i blush &grin at the moment you say 'I love you', cos you know its true. i really do love you with all my heart, dearest. grow old together? id love to. sounds really mushy. haha. but hey, who cares? :DDDDDDDDDDD
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